~Poems~

 

Warped & Twisted

Harsh words & violent blows

Hidden secrets nobody knows

Eyes are open, hands are fisted

Deep inside I'm warped & twisted

So many tricks & so many lies

Too many when & too many whys

Nobody's special, nobody's gifted

I'm just me, warped & twisted

Sleeping awake & choking on a dream

Listening loudly to a silent scream

Call my mind, the number's unlisted

Lost in someone so warped & twisted

On my knees, alive but dead

Look at the invisible blood I've bled

I'm not gone, my mind has drifted

Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted

Burnt out, wasted, empty & hollow

Today's just yesterday's tomorrow

The sun died out, the ashes sifted

I'm still here, warped & twisted.

 

                                                                         Down Again

                                                    I've been pushed down so many times

                                                    I feel this time will be the last

                                                    As I lay here fading

                                                    My thoughts are invaded by memories of my past

                                                    I feel pressures of shame and rejection building

                                                    As I lay here on the floor    

                                                    I have no strength to get up

                                                    I'm not worth it any more.

 

 

The Cry Of Our Hearts

There is a great deal of depression that has overtaken my soul,

It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole.

I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day,

What is to come, to my dismay.

As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions,

more and more comes, more and more depression.

 

I assure myself everything is ok!

But who am I fooling?

Then I burst into a spirit of rage.

I have questions, and there are answers.

But I'm afraid and much too weak,

When I try to explain,

I hear I'm hearing wrong and need to be meek.

But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right,

But as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight.

 

I feel intimidated sometimes by others,

But as I said "This is how I feel"

The pain in me is very real.

I lose control, my thoughts go wild,

and here I am only a child.

If only you knew what I thought,

If only you knew what I fought.

I need my thoughts held captive.

 

                                                                                                 Nearly Unnoticed

                                                                     She is lonely

                                                                      Even though you can't tell        

                                                                      She is reaching out

                                                                       For what, she doesn't know

                                                                       She will continue to sit in silence

                                                                       And hope that someone may stumble across

                                                                        Her and all of her emptiness

                                                                        But they only hope that they do it in time

                                                                        Otherwise she will have drifted too far

                                                                        And she may let go

                                                                        Of whatever grasp of the world she has

                                                                        As she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone

                                                                        Nearly unnoticed.

 

 

Through My Eyes

Like tyrants assembled with tears

Trembling like a tomb

And singing like a statue

I am as empty as the ocean.

My blind eyes scream in silence

So this eternal echo will be known.

Given to the foils of time,

And shattered like plate glass-

You freeze within the fire.

Darkness now lives at daylight,

And shadows turn to the ghosts.

With all that shined is hollow

You imagine unconsciously.

And pretending to sleep you realize,

Nothing is what it seems.

 

 Partly By Scura